I've Been Away, For Some Happy and Some Sad Reasons

Hello activerain and others who may follow my blogs! In case you haven't noticed, I've been away for a loooong time. I've gone through some happy and not so happy times in the past 4 months.

The worst thing that has happened to me is the loss of my dog Annabelle. You may have read my previous blogs from when she first became ill. I stopped writing because it was becoming a burden- between taking her to the vet several times a day, working, trying to get ready for the baby, morning sickness in the last trimester, and the remodeling we had going on at home.

After 2 weeks of treating all of Annabelle's symptoms we had to say goodbye. Everyday a new symptom developed that required a new medication, sadly we just couldn't let her suffer any longer. My poor doggy.... she was just laying there everyday looking at me with those sad eyes and was moaning and groaning all day long. The steriods made her rapidly gain weight, but everything inside her was moving around so when you pet her back all you felt was bones. When she rolled over her belly was protruding. She had big bruises on her legs and chests from all the bloodwork being done and her blood had stopped clotting. Part of me was hoping she might pass at home so we wouldn't have to make the decision. I will never forget that day, May 2nd... at least we let her go with a full belly, she had steak for dinner and breakfast and we fed her full of one of her favorites- popcorn.

In loving memory of Annabelle.