Slave to the Laptop

This was posted on my personal blog back in mid-November. Thankfully, the computer problems have been resolved, not without turning over the laptop for several weeks and outlaying mucho dinero. But it did make me think twice about how totally dependent I am on my technology tools. When they work, boy, do they make my life lots easier. When they DON'T work, man, is it stressful. Makes me wish for simpler times...

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How did this happen? I have a virus on my laptop - it's my own d*mn fault for letting my virus software license lapse - and until I get it fixed, I can't work from home at night or early in the morning. It's TOTALLY stressing me out.

I'm trying to be a bit Zen about it, and enjoy my evenings at home, but I have to admit it's really, really hard not to give myself hives. I mean, right now it is 5:47 P.M. on Monday night, I have to leave the office like, 5 minutes ago, because I promised my babysitter I'd be home by 6:00 P.M. I still have to make dinner for myself and my baby girl, and I have 4,000 things I need to do, 3,997 of which require a computer. Arrgghh....

I'm hyperventilating at the thought of all the e-mails I need to read and respond to, the blog posts and responses I want to write, the market research that I need to do, the listings to update, the brochures to draft....

Ommm...ommm...ommmm...There is something wrong with this world, that has gotten so fast-paced and so high-pressured, that I am feeling GUILTY about the fact that I will be away from my computer and (God forbid!) not working from 6:00 P.M. until 9:00 A.M. tomorrow. That's only 15 hours, and for a good 8-9 of it I'll be unconscious.

Sigh. Did life used to be like this? Is it just like this because I am more than a little ADD and a single mom with a commission-based job? When did I become a slave to the laptop?

To heck with it. I'm going to go home, drink some red wine, make chicken and stuffing and green beans with gravy, snuggle my daughter, read the paper or a book after she goes to bed, and try, TRY, NOT to feel guilty about not working. We'll see how that goes...[;)]