Well, I know for many the past few days have been introspective. It definitely has been for me. Today, on the Turnpike northbound, I couldn't help reflect on a friend's post yesterday on her Facebook site that said "I LOVE MY LIFE"! Yes :), of course I was happy to read it & there were a few comments that said "glad that you are in a good space", "glad things are well for you", "me too! grateful"...etc., but I had to "pause" I knew what she meant, as I know her pretty well. She did this with the events & she is a colleague in the other industry that we share. I knew "exactly" what she meant. There is no greater "tribute" than to "love your life, making the most of it, & be grateful". No one, whether they be family, friend, or friend of friends, would ever wish to be looking down & see us sad, depressed, or staying stuck because of their loss, as hard & heart wrenching as it is... I know that is the message she was resonating. She is a beautiful friend & that kind of person. I know that she felt it, but that was her way to help us pay "tribute" by living the best life we can live.
I sat in traffic today on the way to work...some of our lingo is "day 4 of 6", which means day 4 of 6 days straight that may be 10, 12, 16 hour days, but it is fine & it is self inflicted, as I wanted to balance some things towards the future & with my daughter's move last week. Today though I was stuck in traffic. In my area, as those may be reading...my area can be terrific as everything is right there & so close within literally a few blocks :)!! However, that "everything" at certain points in the day can take an eternity. Today, I allowed 2 hours to make a 20-25 minute drive, plus the shuttle. It took me one hour to go 5 miles.... I did the math, as that is how I roll... I only could go .83 miles per minute or 5 miles per hour for that hour. UGHHH....!!
Okay, so after I heard the song that I just posted on Sheila's site...thinking it was Monday (another hazard of the trade)...it is Tuesday (not Music Monday)... it still was the caption of how I felt when it came on the radio... :-p
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lDK9QqIzhwk
Then I said that God just gave me the "pause" button again...many, many times that happens in traffic. I make it usually with plenty of time...& I am not sure why those times shake me up... Today I wasn't shaken, as I just had the past two days, but I did reflect that God gives us sometimes pause for a reason. I only had one time that I was 10 minutes array when I first moved close to my parents to care for them, and that was because I was out of touch with the traffic patterns. I was forgiven, but it doesn't leave you. Today, I reflected on many things in the car; first of course is why does traffic "stop" when there are signs that plainly say "do not stop"?? I followed that with Bon Jovi, the fact that I do okay with the balance, my daughter's selection of paint for her new place between being gone for 6 days, another job & discounts, my parents, my parents garden, my feelings on some very strong thoughts w/ work, a lot of hectics in my head.... (only 2 cups of coffee)
to my feelings on what my friend said on her page.... "I LOVE MY LIFE" & that is truly the greatest tribute to everyone that you are honoring or that is still present in your life. I decided that there are many times that God makes me, or he 'hits the "pause" button'. Miami-Dade County Kendall Traffic is one of them!! Happy Tuesday (not Monday :)...) Hugs & Night....4am will come early.
